it's almost over...

This year is almost over! I can't believe it. It's been a crazy year! I'm glad it's finally coming to an end though. Can't wait for 2010 so I can start fresh. It's gonna be a good year next year! I will make sure I have a good year lol! So much of this year was a waste. I wasted most of it on little useless things. I'm ready to start new. Gonna fill my life with nothing but good people. This year I have came in contact with LOTS of people who tell me they care about me but are willing to let me go the moment they have the chance. I'm done with that. I dont need and don't want "friends" like that. I need to just back away from them. Both OLD and NEW friends.

NYC??

I miss my buddy...
Haven't talked to him in a while.
Talked to him yesterday but not TALK TALK!
I wanna converse with him lol.
I don't want to bug him though.
I wonder if he would still like to go with me to NYC next year like we planned.
Hmm................
I highly doubt...he might pray I choke on my chili beans. LOL!

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some people give meaning to the word JERK!

My To-Do List

These are just some things I want to do before I leave this earth.

1. Fall in love with an AMAZING man
2. Get married
3. go to walt disney world
4. Hawaii
5. New York City in December
6. Mexican Cruise
7. Hot air balloon
8. Skydive
9. Ice Skate
10. Dodgers Game
11. Football game
12. Lakers Game
13. Finally learn to play tennis
14. own a pair of Nike kicks
15. Paris
16. Learn a foreign language (spanish is included lol)
17. missionary trip
18. Mazda RX8 ;)
19. Roadtrip
20. Seattle and the first starbucks :)
21. Washington DC
22. adopt a child
23. Become a Teacher
24. Parasail
25. Dip in all 4 oceans (or tip toe lol)
26. Visit all 50 states
27. paint a self portrait
28. Graceland
29. Learn and instrument
30. Take mom on a much needed vacae ANYWHERE in the world

no special title.....

It's been a few days since my last post.
Nothing new has happened.
I got my labs done, EKG, and MRI done.
I feel so unhealthy.

Feelings have NOT changed.
My feelings about everything.
Just going to keep on waiting on the Lord.
See what He has for me.
I know He has something for me I just don't know
what it is yet. I hope I find out soon though. I'm
getting so impatient. I feel like things aren't right, right now.
They're not the way they are supposed to be.
I need a change. I hope things change SOON.

No school tomorrow! woohoo! I don't have school on
Thursday either. I have to work on my art reflections paper.
This is my last week of school. I am ready to finish this quarter.
Not quite ready for surgery next week, but ready or not here it
comes. I wish............ahhhh nevermind. Wishing won't change
things. Praying will though.

Well I'm not really into this blog right now. I want to write so much
but lately thinking or talking about everything makes me sad.

Goodnite and God Bless!

Sandy.